Right now, my life feels completely upside down. I don’t know where I’m going to land, but one thing I know for sure: if I can quit smoking, it will give me a lot of hope to look forward to. It’s been a constant battle, sitting around with cigarettes, feeling like they’re slowly taking my life, while not really caring. But I’m starting to care again. I’m starting to think that maybe, just maybe, there’s something better waiting for me.
Quitting smoking is a big step for me. When I quit before, I remember how much better I felt. Exercise and dieting naturally followed, as they usually do. I had more energy, more clarity, and I took better care of myself. It’s like once you get rid of one destructive habit, the others start to fall away, too.
But let me be real with you for a moment. I have an illness that needs to be treated, and that’s going to make this harder for me than it might be for some. You may have an advantage over me if you don’t have the same struggles. It’s not something I say to seek pity, just perspective. You wouldn’t tell your grandfather with Alzheimer’s that you’re better off mentally because he’s battling something you can’t fully understand. My mental health challenges will add layers to my journey that others might not face.
But you know what? Taking care of the basics is a good step forward. It’s the foundation for everything else. If I can stop the smoking, if I can start making better choices for myself, that will be something. And I am grateful to have support, whether I seem like it or not. Sometimes it’s hard to show it when everything feels so chaotic inside, but trust me—it matters.
So here’s to hoping, to taking those small steps, and to believing in a better tomorrow. Even if my life feels upside down, maybe that just means I’m on the verge of flipping things right-side up again.
Thanks for sticking by me. I’m grateful, and I’m starting to care again.
by Dan and Bonkers
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